I feel so broken.. so alone. I’m scared.. Every day I feel sick, I get shakey, all I want to do is lock myself in a dark room with my music, the only thing that understands me, and cry, but I keep my tears inside. I tell myself: “It’s alright to feel just don’t let it show, don’t let anyone know. Keep it all inside.” Sometimes I don’t feel anything and it makes me doubt everything I’ve ever felt.. I have people who care for me but I can’t help but question it. I mean, why would someone care so much about me? of all people? I’m nothing special and I’m actually too f***ed up to be loved like that. I don’t deserve it.. I just don’t understand.. Nothing I say, think, or feel matters, even though I go through each day thinking I’m a terrible person and hope I can be forgiven. I’m just so broken and I’ve realized I’m the only one who will always be there for me… and I have to get used to that.
I know exactly how u feel cause that’s how I feel. But trust me it will all get better soon. People will always love and care about u. If u ever need anyone to talk to just email me and I will be here to talk.
Everyone feels like that. Your not the only one. I don’t blame you. Wanting to just lock yourself up in your bedroom and let music take the stress away. Unfortunately it’ll only get worse from their if you don’t approach the problem. Life’s short and what ever is making you shake or making you cry, isn’t worth you in pain. Music is a great way to cope with sadness and to help you with stress, but just remember, the pain is temporary and it’ll only get harder if you lock yourself up. Whatever the problem is, approach or at least attempt to. Things won’t get easier if you don’t and trust, once you do approach whatever it is, a huge weight will be lifted off your shoulder.